Back to Writings Dreams July 31, 2002 - Enormous Pig, Wasp, Riley Watch - I dreamed that I went with about 6 or 7 other people I didn't really recognize to Safeway to do some grocery shopping. There was a enormous pig, I mean really huge, bigger than my living room, lying on it's side in the middle of the store, with it's legs tied together with ropes. They were selling it as meat for $250. (The price had been lowered several times already.) The tag recommended getting it for a huge party, like a bacholer party. We decided to cut the ropes, and it turned out the pig was still alive. It got up and started chasing us, and we hid behind some shelves until it escaped from the store. It was pretty scary. Later we went to this place that seemed kinda like a huge arcade, with the floor at different levels and balconeys and stuff. It was dark and crowded and noisy. Then we went to a mansion to meet some people. This little red bug started hovering around me and I was really afraid it would sting me. I called it a wasp in the dream, but it looked like a long skinny thing that stood straight up with its wings out behind it, and a little stinger hanging down below it. It buzzed around me for a long time, getting caught in my hair and stuff, but it never did sting me. At some point I was in a bedroom in the mansion, and there was a $20 bill and a watch sitting on the bed. It was pink, with some green glowy bits, and hearts that flashed off and on, and the name RILEY was written on it vertically. I took the watch, planning to show it to Riley when I saw him, to make fun of him for having a girly watch. I went back to the arcade-type place, and Riley was showing me and some other people around, but I already knew all about it. He showed us a game where there's a stack of coins on the ground, and he was about to explain that you throw a coin at the stack to scatter them, and get points and stuff, but before he could explain, I throw a coin and impressed him by hitting the stack right in the middle. After everyone went their seperate ways, I showed him the watch, and he explained that it was supposed to be a gift for the mansion-owning family, because they were mad at him. I didn't think it was a very good gift. Then this guy was showing me that the new pennies were not circular, they were shaped like trees, and I thought it was really cool. July 30, 2002 - Business Trip Flirtiness - I dreamed my husband and I were going on a business trip with this guy Brook who my husband used to work with, and who I haven't spoken to in a very long time. Brook smiled a lot more in the dream than in real life, and had an infinately easier time doing things like hugging. Anyway I was flirty with him in this dream, it was fun. I also got to kiss him goodbye. =) July 29, 2002 - Work Inspector - I dreamed I was the only one at work (except it was a convenience store, not a coffee shop) and the inspector came to see how good I was doing, and making sure everything was done perfectly, and all clean, and efficient, etc. It was incredibly stressful. There was a huge lineup of people, and I could only go so quickly, and I had tons of chores to do. Bleh. I hate stress dreams. July 28, 2002 - Xander Learns Secrets Through Sex - I dreamed some important guy had this secret book. The book is very small and pink with a hard cover. There were lots of big important secrets in the book, and no one was allowed to read it. It was left out in the open most of the time, but there were cameras everywhere, and if you were caught reading it, you would be captured or killed or something. There was the girl, young and cute, and I think Philippino, with ponytails, and she wanted to know the secrets, as did Xander, who was there too, for some reason. Anyway, there they were in this room, with the book, and a bunch of cameras too. This girl starts being really forward with Xander, like she wants to have sex with him. He's kind of taken aback, turned on, but he wants to be a gentleman or something. He's being all flattered "but I don't think we should do this" and stuff. She whispers in his ear that that's not what she means, and something cryptic about there being secrets, if only he'd open his eyes to see them. So he gets it now, and they start pretending to have sex for the benefit of the cameras, and he sort of knocks the book open and reads it, while making little moaning noises and stuff. Two guard type guys were watching the screen and enjoying the show, and never even knew their important secrets were getting out. July 25, 2002 - Buying Games, Ken Falls Through Glass Pipe - I dreamed my husband and I were shopping for video games, and there was a series of 6 games. We bought games 5 and 6 in the series. Game 5 was Warcraft 3 (which I've been playing recently) and game 6 was Jazz Jackrabbit (which is completely unrelated to Warcraft, and I haven't played or thought about it in several years). We got separated on our way home. I was walking downtown (in Red Deer, where I don't live anymore) to catch a bus, and I came across my Dad and my brother Ken, who were also waiting for a bus. It turned out that Ken had been injured earlier, and I had missed it all. See, he was wandering around on top of a downtown building, for some reason. The water pipes into the building go through the roof, and have glass walls, so if you're on the roof, you can see the clean water running through. He fell through one of those glass thingies and cut up his legs. Ambulances and stuff came, and the doctors said they'd give him extra attention and fix up his legs better than for other people, because he knows how to ski. (He hasn't gone skiing in years.) The funny thing is, when I saw him in the dream, and he was telling me the story, his legs were fine. July 24, 2002 - Haunted House - I dreamed I went into a haunted house. I was more irritated than scared; the ghost was pretty obnoxious. You had to do everything the ghost wanted, or it would throw things, kinda like a kid having a tantrum. I was trying to get some stuff from the house, but the ghost didn't want me to have it. I think some of the stuff I was trying to get might have been Christmas ornaments. I remember the ghost didn't like my clothes or something, but most of this dream is pretty fuzzy. The house vaguely resembled the main room in Luigi's Mansion. July 23, 2002 - Metal Ants Video Game, Mother-in-Law's Harry Potter Car - I dreamed I was playing a 3D video game that takes place on an entire planet. The planet is pretty small; you can walk around it pretty quickly. On the planet are shiny metal ants, and black plastic spiders (I don't know why they're plastic, it doesn't make much sense). The ants grow their legs deep underground like roots and transform the dirt into metal a little bit at a time. They also kill the spiders by biting them as they walk past. The spiders eat the metal and turn it into dirt. Your job in the game is to kill the ants and protect the spiders. You must kill all the ants before the entire planet turns to metal, and at least one spider must remain alive. I also dreamed my mother-in-law went to see Harry Potter and loved it, and bought a little Harry Potter car from the theatre (It's a toy car, but just big enough for one adult to ride around in). She hooked it to the back of her real car and trailed it behind her everywhere she went. The toy car had a little working oven inside it, and she'd cook on the road. July 20, 2002 - ThinkRape Novel Excerpt - I dreamed I was reading an excerpt from a novel. Then I couldn't sleep again until I wrote it down. After reading it again, all I can figure is that it's about a guy who wants a real relationship with this girl, and real relationships involve children, and going out for coffee and donuts. That, or I had work on my mind. (I serve coffee and donuts.) The guy and the girl looked like Spike and Buffy by the way. Warning: There's some not-very-racy talk of forceful sex coming up, so skip it if you don't like that sort of thing. "Lately he found himself thinking more and more about some particular 6 donuts and 4 coffees and 2 kids, and the differences between rape and think-rape. He buried himself inside her, and imagined a world where he could just order those 6 donuts and 4 coffees and 2 kids, and when did rape start to seem so very different from think-rape anyway? "Lately she didn't stop when he did. She begged him to continue. "More, more!" she screamed at him, even though it hurt her. He knew what she was doing. She was forcing him to force her, to take the action out of his head and into reality, to stop him dealing with it alone. So he kept going, and kept his hands away from her hands, his heart away from her heart, his mouth away from her mouth. It wasn't the first time they had done it this way, but the first time in a while." That's about when I woke up. July 17, 2002 - How to Make a Scary Movie - I dreamed I had to write an essay about everything I had learned so far in my movie making class (which I had apparently been in for about 2 months). I had written a page, but it had to be longer, and I had to include everything I'd learned, and I realized the essay was due tomorrow. What I had learned was how to make a scary movie. Rules 1 and 2 were about darkness and sound effects I think. Rule 3 was to put someone or something very cute and helpless in horrible danger. For some reason, the example I gave was a cat with wings. There were two such cats in the dream. One was blue and white with furry wings, and the other was black with feathered wings. I ended up at an abandoned store where lots of oddly-dressed young women were living. The cats were there, and I was not fitting in, and I was very determinedly not writing my essay. July 10, 2002 - Photographing my Brother the Model - I dreamed about photography. I was being shown around my mum's house, which, it turned out, was enormous, like a mansion. It had a couple huge rooms, like gyms, that had been decorated with curtains covering all the walls, in red, blue, and lilac. My brother Ken was going to model. (He'd be a good model; he's very confident, good at acting, and smiles a lot.) For some reason he was holding things like oranges and feathers in the pictures. July 9, 2002 - Art Class with SyberKat - I dreamed I was in an art class with a woman called SyberKat, who in real life is an incredible artist who I met at the CyberSix MessageBoard, but never in person. In the dream, everyone was given one huge piece of paper to divide into 4 sections, and to draw whatever they like on it, on the spot, for 15 minutes. I drew a cute little cartoon elephant, with its back leg sticking out, and it was making a cute face. I was pretty proud that I drew it so well. It was right in the middle of the page. Then I remembered to divide up the page into 4, so I made my dividing lines go behind the little elephant. Then I drew a fish, then a house on fire. For the fire, I was drawing with markers, and I'd just pull the marker slowly of the page to make 3-dimensional fire. It was cool. It made the paper seem kinda furry. I was jealous that SyberKat was such a good artist. Then I noticed people were hanging their pictures on the wall and leaving. I felt rushed. Then I noticed some people had colored 2 of their sections all black, so they'd have less space to use for pictures. I was mad that they were cheating. Then I was told I had to put a phone number on my picture, as an ad for my make-believe art-delivery company that the picture was supposedly advertising. The number had to be 1-800-xxx-yyyy, and xxx had to be a real 3 digits from a real place (I chose 258 from Calgary) and yyyy had to be the cost of delivery, for some reason. I chose 0100, for $100. I don't understand it any more than you do. =) July 7, 2002 - Basement TV Show, Crew Audition - I dreamed I knew a guy, a fat geeky kinda guy, who wanted to start his own tv show, so he got together about a dozen people in his basement to be his studio audience. I was there too. He waited a while, then when it was time to start, he played his theme song on the piano and sang along. Then he played an animation he had made for us. I don't remember seeing a camera anywhere, and I wondered if it was just a rehearsal. I made fun of him at one point, and he got all sad, so I tried to make him feel better. I said I liked the piano part of his theme song. That made him happy. Then I started thinking, if he got famous, I should be a part of his show: maybe I could be his announcer, or Vanna White type person or something. I also dreamed that I was auditioning as the musician for a stage play (they were auditioning crew, not cast). I did well, and the audience (a huge one) was impressed. Then a guy auditioned for the part of a script-writer. He read something he had written, and the audience liked it. But then he said "In case I don't get in, I'd also like to audition as the musician" and he conducted an orchestra or something, and everyone liked him way better than me, and I got really upset. July 6, 2002 - Girl-Drawn Carriage - I dreamed that I lived in a small town where everyone had been given lots of coupons, as a promotion for local businesses. One of them was for a Chinese food restaurant, run by a Chinese couple called Jack and Diane (like the Springsteen song) and I could never understand what they said. Another coupon was for a toy shop. The guy who ran it made bizarre little wooden toys by hand. The main one that stood out in the dream was a miniature of a horse drawn carriage, but instead of horses, it was pulled by two identical little red-haired girls, like the girl on "Kids in the Hall" who says "It's a fact". There were two little horses running beside the carriage. If you push on the carriage, they all start swinging back and forth, connected by a string, like they're running. July 4, 2002 - Lost Dog, Roommate Xander, Tapdancing Anya - I dreamed my husband and I found a lost dog. It was big and white and ratty looking, with really matted fur ("like sheep wool", my husband said). It had a collar, but no tag, so we didn't know where it lived, but we eventually realized it had a red, dog-shaped metal tag attached to it that explained that it's a bad dog that runs away a lot, and if you find it, please call the SPCA. So we took the dog home, and tried to tie the dog to a railing outside our house (which for some reason was like a London 2-up 2-down town house kinda flat, connected to lots of other narrow flats). The dog suddenly had a long chain attached to its collar, and it was hard to tie, so we finally brought it inside, and went to find our roommates to watch the dog while we call the SPCA. We went upstairs, and I discovered that our roommates were Xander and Anya from Buffy. I could hear running water, and tapping. Xander was in the shower (and quite irritated that we'd disturbed him) and Anya was learning to tapdance, and very excited about it. She explained that she wasn't standing up and dancing yet, just sitting and practicing the steps. She said "The hip-wiggling comes later". I don't remember any more. July 2, 2002 - Photo Place, Cute Guy, Poetry Reading - I dreamed I was working at a photo developing place. They had employed too many people, so there was never anything to do, so I just stood around and watched people all the time. There was a really cute guy working there (for some reason his name was Wes) and he was driving me home one night in a convertable. He invited me to go with him to a poetry reading next Saturday night. He explained that he goes all the time, and usually each person there reads two poems for the group. They're usually pretty dramatic, and wave their arms around a lot. I asked if I could sing my poems (I had an idea that I could just do two songs I had written) and he said that would be great. I told him I hope he's not flirting with me, that it's not a date or anything, because I'm married, and he said no, of course not (he kinda blushed and looked like he was lying) he said it's great that I'm married and he'd still like to go with me. I'm not sure if there was any more to the dream, but I know I never got to the part with the poetry reading. June 22, 2002 - Three Genders - I dreamed about a race of people with three genders. [Warning: sex talk coming up. Skip this part if you don't wanna read about naughty bits.] Here's how it worked: The males of this race were just like in real life. There was a neutral gender; they don't make sperm or eggs, but they have a womb, and a vagina. The females make eggs (that's what makes them defined as female) but they a penis (no balls though) and they shoot out their eggs in come. In order to conceive a baby, a male and a female each have to have sex with a neutral. In the dream, it was illegal to have only two-person sex, without a neutral involved, since it's unnatural. I'm thinking of writing a book about it. Would it count as science fiction? Maybe if they were aliens from another planet or something. Hmm. Actually, in the dream, there was a danger of sperm getting inside a female and impregnating her, which would kill her, since she has no womb. Also, sperm and eggs could mix outside the body, and make a fetus that would soon die, no matter what. For this reason, sex-play without actual intercourse was looked down upon. Jeez, I have weird dreams. =) June 21, 2002 - Water Dress, Lost Wedding Ring - I dreamed I was looking at a picture of my family. My mom was wearing a long, pale-silvery gown, possibly a wedding dress, and was tall (which she's not in real life). In the picture, we were all (my mum, dad, brother and me) standing on a field of grass that had about 2 inches of water sitting on it. The water had ripples, and was the same color as the dress; it looked like it was part of the dress, like the dress was big enough to extend out over the field. For some reason I wanted to reproduce the photo, so my mom was in the dress, and I had a camera, and there was this flowing river. I was backing into the river to get enough into the shot. My mom was smiling, waiting for her picture to be taken. I was holding a ring in my hand, and my wedding ring (which I was wearing) was on the wrong finger. I was going to take off my wedding ring and replace it with the other ring, and put my wedding ring on the correct finger, while holding the camera. I took off my wedding ring, and dropped it into the water. It floated for a second, but I still didn't catch it in time. I thought maybe if I could get under the water, I'd be able to see it, but I wasn't moving fast enough. I woke up in a bit of a panic, but was soon ok. June 20, 2002 - Buffy's mom, the Vampire - I dreamed Buffy and her mom, Joyce, were on the stairs in their house (which was different than how their house looks on the show), and for some reason Joyce was in her nightgown. Two vampires came in through the windows (breaking the rule that they can't come in unless invited). Joyce got kind of into the fight, and managed to stake one of them, and then Buffy lunged at the second one, that was about to kill Joyce. Buffy thought she had hit him, and dropped the stake in triumph, but she had missed his heart, and he put a stake through Joyce's heart. Then there was a jump to a few days later. It turned out Joyce had been turned into a vampire (do most people have continuity errors in their dreams? 'cause I do). She wasn't particularly evil, and she didn't turn fangy; she was just more outgoing, with a weird sense of humor. Her and Buffy still hung out. I think Joyce started to become a bad influence on Buffy, getting her to steal things, like Faith had done. She didn't kill anyone though. My husband said "Maybe she was a vampire with a soul". June 17, 2002 - Cardboard School Assignment, Swimming Reindeer - I dreamed I was in school on a Tuesday, and we were all supposed to make something out of cardboard. I had been making up a story (in the dream, not in real life) about a kid who runs away from home to find out some secret about his family. He meets a dog named Dog and a cat named Swagger, who can both talk. The cat is silly and the dog is serious. They give him some advice but I forget what about. Later he steals a horse with whom he has many conversations. Anyway, I figured for my school assignment I would make a cardboard sculpture of the horse. I drew the outline on the cardboard, but didn't even get it cut out. The next day I realized the assignment was due and I wasn't done. Luckily, an unattractive and annoying girl I had never noticed before had a crush on me, and had made a cardboard sculpture for me to hand in, so I wouldn't get in trouble. I asked what she wanted in return, and she said she wanted to have breakfast with me next Wednesday, and I agreed. The sculpture was of a silly cartoon alien. I figured I'd better add an alien to my story, so I have something to talk about when I present my assignment to the class. Unfortunately, we had to go to a beach by some cliffs for the presentation, and I wasn't sure where it was. We made it there, but it was a long walk and we were late. People were presenting their stuff on a stage, and there was an announcer, but it seemed to be becoming a bit of a talent show, because some people were singing. I couldn't figure out why. Eventually I noticed some reindeer swimming along the river behind the stage, lots of them, in groups of about a dozen at a time. They bobbed in and out of the water like dolphins, and had great big antlers. I think they were migrating. At some point I got worried that the announcer hadn't called my name yet, so I went to ask if my name was on the list. He said no, he didn't see it on that page. He started to think, and I had to remind him it was time to announce the next person. Then he checked the first page, and there was my name, second on the list. I said "Oh, I think I wasn't here yet" and he said there's nothing he can do: if I was late for my turn, I don't get to present my project. I got really upset and started to cry. I cried and fussed for a bit, then was relieved to wake up. June 16, 2002 - Strawberry Cream Pie, Nicholas Brendon's Age, Books locked in Buildings - I dreamed of eating strawberry cream pie, although I've never heard of such a thing. It was yummy. Do most people taste in their dreams? 'Cause I sure do. It may have been caused by those ads on tv for Strawberry tarts from Tim Horton's. I dreamed I was in a high school, and Nicholas Brendon (who plays Xander on Buffy) was there, promoting himself or something. He was writing his name, along with jokes and comments and things, on all these whiteboards that were hanging from the ceiling. I kept talking to him. I guess I was getting him mixed up with James Marsters or something, because he kept lying about his age (which James Marsters tends to do). I was pretty sure he was 31, but he kept saying all these different numbers. He started making fun of me for calling him on it. He grinned, and sarcastically told me he was 52. Weird. I had this long complicated epic sort of dream about a village where lots of homeless people were locked out of the public buildings all night, and I was with them. It was dark, but not for very long, and raining a little. I gave my black umbrella to someone, who passed it to someone else. For some reason (I can't remember the details) they wanted books, which were inside the locked buildings, and they were willing to wait all night for the buildings to open. One of the buildings was an A&W restaurant on the main floor, and had a long spiral staircase inside. I tried to climb up, or got inside then climbed out a window; in any case, I ended up clinging to the side, on the top floor. It was kinda scary. and wet and cold. That's about all I remember. June 11, 2002 - AM or PM, and a made-up video game - I dreamed my husband and I had been talking, I forget what about, and it was dark out. He looked at the clock and said "Hey, it's only 7:00, cool, I thought it was later than that. Funny how time always goes at a different speed than you think it's going." And I gasped and said "It's 7AM! We were up all night!" and he said "oh, hmm. Oh well." I was all stressed and he wasn't. I figured I'd better stay up all day, to keep my sleep schedule normal. I also dreamed about a video game. There are different screens, and you walk from one to another, which takes forever. I got an item that let me walk faster, like a truck or a horse or something, I forget. I also got a treasure chest item, that let me warp instantly to the bank in the town. I was also told that somewhere in the north is an item that will hinder your progress if you pick it up, so if you recognize it, it's best to just leave it behind. Also there was an item storage box on the screen, but if you put things in it, you can't take them out again, or manipulate them in any way. It's just for collecting. So if you put your carry-case in there, you can't put things in or take things out ever again. It seemed really easy to permanently ruin your chances of winning the game. I wonder what it all means. June 6, 2002 - An impossible task for school - I dreamed my class was separated into 3 sections, and we were each given a seperate assignment. 2 of the assignments were impossible, and I was given one of the impossible ones. I was given a wooden board that was propped upright on a stand, and it had 16 squares of plastic fluff attached to it (kind of like really thick velcro). My task was to paint the black plastic stringy stuff white, using really thin paint. The paint didn't stick to the plastic, it would run right off, but I kept trying anyway. (On the cart I'd been given, there was a little tray of paint, and a big unopened can of paint. At one point I ran out of paint from the tray, and opened the paint can. Someone told me that was very clever, most people don't think to do that, or think they're not supposed to.) At the end of the class, the teacher graded everyone based on how well they accomplished their task. One group got an A, and the 2 groups with impossible assignments each got a C. I started to cry, saying it wasn't fair. (After I woke up, it occured to me that maybe it would have worked better if I had laid the board flat on a table.) I went walking through the school, and heard music playing. My brother Ken was singing. I looked around, and saw him playing with his band (which doesn't exist, as far as I know) on the stairs in a cafeteria. They all had punk hair. The only two I recognized were Ken and his friend Max. When the song ended I thought about going to complain to Ken about the unfairness of my class, but I eventually realized they had started playing again, so I walked away. I can't remember much else. June 5, 2002 - Cat and rabbit - I dreamed I was putting my parents' cat outside (even though I haven't seen the cat, Gidget, for a long time) and every time I'd open the door, Gidget would run out, and a little brown rabbit would run in. I'd try to catch it, and sometimes it would jump onto the back of my neck and cling there. The last time it happened, I pulled it off and threw it outside. I thought it was cute and furry though. (I had this dream at least three times during the night, possibly more.) I told my friend Eva about it, and she says her dream book says that banishing Gidget out of the house is good luck, because cats are bad luck, and the rabbit coming in is good luck, because the rabbit symbolizes good fortune, and that I'll appreciate my blessings more in the future. I asked if it matters that the rabbit was not welcome in the house, and she didn't know. I don't think Gidget is bad luck though, he's a cutie. I love cats. June 3, 2002 - Spike and school - Last night I dreamed Spike went into a movie theatre, and for some reason he thought theatres keep all their old movies, and you can request any one you want. He said "Jurassic Park" and the clerk lady said "What?" He said "Jurassic Park, and that 1993 one about the vampire. pg-13." She said "umm.. I think I missed those..." and he suddenly realized his mistake and was all embarrassed. he said "Oh, right, um, yeah well..." and he started leaving, and the door wouldn't open, and he pulled it off in his hurry to get out. I swear that's exactly what happened, the dialogue and everything. I also dreamed I'd been in school (next year) for about a month, but I still wasn't sure what my schedule was like, and I had missed four of my classes every single time, 'cause they were in the afternoon, and I thought I only had morning classes. I realized I'd missed lots of classes, and asked my friend Kiley if I could borrow her schedule and copy it, 'cause mine is all ratty and torn up, I said. Later, it was 1:40pm, and I checked my schedule, and it turned out my class that day started at 1:00pm, and I started swearing and trying to get to school. My watch was broken, so I got a different one. The new watch had a choice of cartoon characters. You pick one, and it's face appears on the front, and it makes little noises. Anyway, in class, we were displaying posters we had made to advertise something or other. I didn't have a poster to display. Kiley did, and hers was a grainy black and white photo of something garbley and unrecognizable, and Spike was there, displaying a big blown up photo of himself. We all went outside while the voting was going on, and Buffy and Dawn were out there. I was talking to Spike, and Dawn noticed him, and got all blushy and mumbly. Buffy, who was wearing a white semi-transparent next-to-nothing, started trying to get Dawn away from him, and Dawn pointed at me and complained "but SHE's talking to him..." I can't remember much after that. Past Dreams - I kind of wish I had kept a dream journal. I'll write old dreams in here as I remember them. A few nights ago, I dreamed I was working on my friend Anay's song (I had really been doing that the previous day) but for some reason my music software was in the dashboard of a car. It wasn't my car. I was in a big parking lot, and I saw Xander (or was he Nicholas Brendan?) and a girl walking toward the car, arguing. I'd never seen the girl before, but I knew she was his girlfriend. The car turned out to be his car, and they were driving somewhere, so I went with them. They went to a party, and I don't remember anything after that. Back to Writings

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